Summer is ending, there’s a little bit of Autumn emerging since a few days. The smells have changed in a quiet way, becoming more raw, full of earth and burning sunrise. It will be my very first Fall season here, in the Pacific Northwest, and I can’t wait to dive right into it.
Two months already since the Great Trip. Since then, I’ve been mostly silent here and else.
I was aiming to share with you my move in this incredible region, to talk about my first discoveries, the radical change of scenery that I was expecting, but also the difficult parts (let’s be honest here, an expatriation comes with these too). In the end, I’ve decided to leave Internet alone for a while, I’ve voluntarily neglected the virtual spaces that I usually haunt just to be able to enjoy my new life in a completely selfish way.
I pressed the pause button, and I simply took some rest. Rather than wandering and losing myself in the social media, I breathed by the shadow of the Great Pines that I met. Rather than spending hours with emails and todo lists, I went outside, I walked on the forest paths and experienced the mountains around. To find myself again, to center and regenerate. To form a relationship with these Lands that welcomed me and of which I am now a part.
It took me more time than I was expecting to adjust to this new environment. I’m not that flexible and even if I did consider the huge changes that should come with the move, I think I can admit today that I underestimated the impact of it. But in the end, the shaking and the metamorphosis that came along were so beneficial to me.
I must say that not having to post anything was a good thing too. If you’re a content creator yourself, you surely know what I mean: the constant pressure to regularly put out perfect photos with thoughtful captions to get some attention on your craft. Well, being able to concentrate on something else for a moment, or on nothing at all for that matter, has been really helpful. It was nice to put away the bag of thoughts and stress that I usually carry with me all the time (I even found myself dreaming again in the process!).
I’ve been silent quite a while but I can see now how necessary it was. And it was after all a reflection of the Silence that I encountered in the woods, when I was walking in this Wild Nature. A refreshing silence that soothes, inspires and heals deeply. A quiet time that made me able to gather some energy for the seasons and the challenges to come, and there surely will be some.
I didn’t bring a lot of stuff when I came here: four suitcases for two persons, Mister Pumpkin and his 11 pounds of fur, plus a little inner flame of mine named creativity. Now that Autumn is starting to show off its most beautiful colors, I know that this Summer of silence and contemplation was precisely the fuel that I needed for this fire to start again, but also to allow me to express myself again.